Monday was the big day, I had my interview scheduled at 11:15pm. Last week’s intense focus and study was for that; the poor sleep was caused by that. I was nervous, excited, wanted to get over with it since the weekend. Fortunately by Monday I was at peace. I’ve done everything I could do and planned my day with the sole purpose to go in rested, alert, and confident.
I woke up 4:24am, after days of waking up at 1, 2, 3am, it was a relief to have had a good night of sleep. I was tired though, maybe from the LR on Sunday. Maybe it’s the accumulated fatigue out of stress of this interview.
As i lied down on the floor to mediate at 5am, I was embracing the let it go. Let go the urge to control the outcome of this process. I told myself I’ve done all I could to prepare because I wanted to give my best shot.
My run started not great, tired fatigue, self doubt, but as it progressed I felt better.
I walked Lizzy to school after my run. Holding her hands made me more firm why I am doing this. I love my girls so much and I don’t want to let them down. I asked Lizzy: what do you think it’s my chance to get this job? She confidently said: 100%. I asked her why, she said because you worked so hard.
Through the course of the day, many relatives, close friends sent me text to wish me luck.
Yet, I don’t want to get the hope too high, what if there’s something else that I haven’t factor in.
I tell myself: as long as you’ve given your best, there’s nothing to regret. Embrace whatever outcome.
I felt like this was the last 0.2 miles of the marathon. I can sprint, give it all, knowing that I can crush after midnight.
I studied 2 hrs in the morning. Then took a short nap after lunch with husband. When I woke up I went to my favorite massage place for 2 hrs full body massage. While my mind couldn’t turn off practicing my answers and remarks, I felt rested and relaxed after that.
I had dinner with Lizzy and headed to bed for another nap at 7:30pm. I woke up 9pm, getting ready for the interview. Lizzy wasn’t asleep yet, she came to my office, she said she was excited and nervous for my interview. hehehe…. exactly when I needed, last bit of hug and kiss from my baby.
I had coffee at 9:30pm, as if I am starting my day. 10:30pm, I meditated for 20 min. Then changed to work cloth, light make up and show time!
It went well, at least that’s how I felt.
I couldn’t sleep until 2am, and woke up 5:30am on Tuesday.
Just when I thought the marathon is over, I was notified that I will be interview for the other two jobs I applied. Not sure when, but soon. It’s like telling someone that just sprinted to the finish line of a marathon that another she needs to run another one.
Today is Wednesday and my run was awful, my HR was 10 beats above usual and I felt exhausted. I guess that’s the crush.
But I know I am not done yet, I have another marathon to run, so I will take some easy jog and pick up the pace for my second race.
Wish me luck.
Our New Journey 
Oh my goodness, Coco, this was a lot of stress! I am sure you did very well on the interview! You gave it your very best and were well prepared.
I wish you all the best for the upcoming interviews for the other two jobs.
You’ve got this! One of the options will definitely work out – if not all three jobs!
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Events like this really just drain the energy out of me. And I think we manage to run on adrenaline for a while and then CRASH after being so “on” for an important interview.
I’m sure you did an amazing job, and I’m glad you’re taking steps to care for your body and mind. But I can 100% relate to the “finish a marathon and learn you need to start all over again.” You’ve got this and I love the example you’re setting for your daughters of being an independent and successful leader in your industry, while also making sure to balance that with rest and recuperation.
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That sounded so stressful. You did your best and the rest is up to them! Hugs from New Jersey.
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WOW, how stressful! It sounds like you’ve done everything you can to convince them you are the right fit. You were prepared, you know your stuff, and you did what you could to be calm and relaxed. Now it’s out of your hands, and if you don’t get it, it will not be because you didn’t give it 100%. And if not this one, one of the others. I can tell that you are very dedicated and excellent at your work.
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So this interview was late at night? (I’m assuming it was in a different time zone.) That’s HARD! You had to wait for it all day! But it sounds like you did really well. Fingers crossed for you.
I hope you can get some rest before starting the process all over again.
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Oof, an 11:15pm interview would be so hard! It would be hard to wind down after that, especially after having some caffeine (which would have been essential for me, too!). It’s stressful to have 2 other interviews, but also good to have some alternates if this one doesn’t work out? Hopefully you hear something relatively soon. I hate it when the hiring process is super long and drawn out!!
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