First, let me share my dream this morning. so freaking weird. I was dreaming going to my meeting where I need to get the antigen test, only to arrive at the place and realized that I didn’t have it because when I was in the office, the assistant didn’t call me to take it. Then suddenly in the dream, I realized that the meeting is happening today at 2pm, that I am still sleeping and haven’t actually gone to the office. What a relief. I kept thinking that it’s the effect of the waking up course, that is teaching/rewiring my mind to realize that I am the thinker, to observe myself doing certain things, to detach from myself.
Second, I am pondering the idea of not having a full time helper when we move to Jakarta. I know the convenience of having one because I could delegate so much. Yet, because I can delegate so much including childcare such as taking girls to soccer, I don’t often go to see them playing. yesterday I went and one of the mom said she was surprised to see me there. mmmm….. I guess I can still have a full time helper and make a decision of going regularly to see the girls. Or I can already cut that line of help, and have a part time helper to just clean, laundry, and meal prep. Hard decision to make.
Family Sunday. I had a fight with husband last week about how to spend Sundays. To me, Sundays should be family day, we we should be together even doing nothing. He wants to play golf with his friends who are only free on Sunday. There you go the fight. After the fight, I called two friends and realize this is a more common fight than I thought. It was great to zoom out from my own situation, pause, and decide how to compromise to a mutually agreeable solution.
Dedicated work reading day. I receive so many emails about new reports and articles that are not directly linked to my day to day work, but so interesting. I’d flag them to read later when I have free time, but never do. Now that I’ve decided to work in the office 3 times a week, Wed and Fri WFH, I think I’ll make Wednesday a dedicated work related reading for professional growth.
I had a hair cut this week and it is rather too short. I don’t like how it fits me but it’s convenient as I can wash my hair easily. It nnoys me that it doesn’t look good and I’m annoyed with myself for being annoyed for such a mundane thing as hair cut. I know in one month it will be in perfect length.
Debating with being relaxed vs. put together. When I see other women look so put together, I feel the pressure to also do the same. Even going to watch their kids soccer game, they have all their hair, makeup, casual outfit done with matching purse. I guess I am envy of looking that way when I usually just wear short and shirt without make up and a pony tail unless it’s a working day. Even on work days, if I don’t like a meeting, I put minimal effort. However, I feel more awake, confident when I do wear makeup as I am not 20 years old, so maybe I should spend 10 min everyday to look presentable all the time? mmmm…..
That’s enough for a Monday morning…. I’d better get going so my dream doesn’t actually happen.