Since I am not allowed to do any physical activity and avoid outdoor time, I stayed mainly indoor, reading, resting, meditation, journaling, and reflect. I am enjoying this simple slow state of my mind, it's like a post-trauma (the move, the sickness, the surgery) recovery time for me. I finished ZEN in the morning while … Continue reading Slow simple day →

I woke up in the middle of the night and I could see the door frame, the edges of the furniture. I thought I was dreaming. I went back to sleep. I slept another 10 hours and woke up with clear vision, almost no foreign sensation on my right eye, and no blurry anymore. I … Continue reading Getting used to the new “world vision” →

This is the day I'm been excited, nervous, anxious about for weeks. It is finally here! I slept almost 10 hours. Feeling rested and calm. I need to be fasting from food and water until after the surgery. I've never done a water fast. So far I am feeling okay, had last water intake 1:20am … Continue reading Feeling calm before the surgery and how it went →

Coming back to Manila after leaving 1.5 months ago gave me mixed feelings. It feels home no matter how much I try to remind myself that it's no longer. The familiarity of the places gives me comfort. It draws me wanting to move back, especially when I hear their filipino accent english. My flight went … Continue reading Back to Manila – feels home →

10am A week after I got sick, I still don't feel like myself. I haven't run since Sunday over a week ago, that tells you a lot about my energy level. Also, my resting heart rate continued to be higher than normal, which worries me (40s vs 50s). I'm supposed to fly out tonight to … Continue reading Nervous, anxious, sick? →